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|Friday, September 24th, 2004|
|CD mix compilations advice
I need to make some mix CDs from my music collection (not from music downloads but from other CDs) I've seen a number of shareware things on line but I can't tell which are worth trying. Any advice on this from my Friends would be greatly appreciated (and of course, rewarded with a mix cd)
If there is another music swap done on caitlin-r-kiernan.com, I am hoping to participate.
Also.. I have started a new journal to supplement this one. So if you see "mellawyrden" popping up on your "friends" list suddenly, it's just me. Current Mood: sleepy
For The Anniversary Of My Death
by W. S. Merwin
Every year without knowing it I have passed the day
When the last fires will wave to me
And the silence will set out
Like the beam of a lightless star
Then I will no longer
Find myself in life as in a strange garment
Surprised at the earth
And the love of one woman
And the shamelessness of men
As today writing after three days of rain
Hearing the wren sing and the falling cease
And bowing not knowing to what
|Thursday, September 23rd, 2004|
computer keeps dying today, again, and I wanted to make a long post but will have to type it offline. Supposedly I am being given my internet access at home tomorrow night.
I saw LOST last night and wanted to write about it.
|Wednesday, September 22nd, 2004|
|Monday, September 20th, 2004|
More exerpts from my Numerology reading from Dreamtime.
"From 30 to 38 years old, your PINNACLE IS 11
This is a time of inspiration, emotional awareness and
powerful personal growth. You will face many obstacles and
personal challenges throughout this period. You may be
directly tuned into your own spiritual awareness and this
brings strong revelations of personal and humanitarian
growth. As you work through this period you will do best to
focus your energy on looking within and serving others as
well as on the intense creative energies you have and your
intuitive sense which will blossom into an amazing awakening
of your soul. Do not take this too lightly or you will be
given emotional tests repeatedly until you have learned the
path you are to follow during this time.
"The CHALLENGE of this Pinnacle is 1
The challenge you will face in this period is one of
learning to be independent, creative, unique and assertive.
Your independence will flourish after you face up to any
strong-willed friends or relatives who may try to control
you. Do not let their opinions change you: you are an
original pioneer and creative in your own right."
I have to buy the profile to read the rest, but meanwhile it's nice to keep reading the teasers. Something about me being psychic? Score! Current Mood: awake
|Friday, September 17th, 2004|
I am very concerned about my state of mind today. To top it all off, the person I broke things off with two weeks ago has come to see me, to break things off with me. Good to have the point driven home even more miserably than it has to be.
I want someone to come here and get me drunk, and take me to see SKY CAPTAIN.
Arts Students Die Young:http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/health/3114493.stm
anyway, blaaargh.. my tummy is killing me. I want to go home and lay on the floor. Stupid haggis.
I've been chasing down the sales rep all day to get my high speed internet installed TONIGHT dammit. I've phoned half the office and they've all been phoning him all day, as have I. He promised three different times since messing up last Friday that I would have it tonight, and when I called this morning, there wasn't even a work order in for it at all.
Oooh he has called.. wait for it...
and the answer is NO, I will not get my internet this friday either. what a surprise. I will have to wait until next friday, which is almost an entire month after I originally signed up for it. According to the rep, some "new guy" in the office didn't type the work order in properly which has led to the delay.
I have research to do. This is bullshit. Current Mood: bitchy
|Thursday, September 16th, 2004|
I think I have decided on the Victoria corset from Starkers! catalogue, in black brocade:
it is underbust, which I think would allow for more freedom of movement & other options. I've got to do the measurements now. I'm very excited Current Mood: enthralled
Here is my suggestion for a good yet overlooked film. HOUSEKEEPING (1987 or 1988) which stars Christine Lahti as the transient aunt of two teenage girls. The film is set in the 1950s. This is one of my very favourite films, one of those things that illustrates truths in a way that really struck me.
The story Sylvie tells of the homestead in the shadow of the mountain where the frost never melts, and the wild children who creep about in the woods laughing - this is one of my favourite things & I find myself thinking of it still.
The music is very nicely done.
This is a good illustration of how I feel 24 hours a day these days
Screaming Elijah is my grad school mascot.
All this crap keeps going wrong & I can only take care of it on the fly, because I do not stop running from the minute my feet hit the floor, until the minute I lay down to sleep 19 hours later. I want to write and finish a painting this weekend, but I have hundreds upon hundreds of pages of reading to do, plus errands & so on
I hope the cable guy manages to come tomorrow as promised (twice)
|Wednesday, September 15th, 2004|
I watched QUEER EYE FOR THE STRAIGHT GUY for the first time last night and I loved the show. There were two episodes in a row last night. I loved that each guy was given a complete makeover in one day, and it was so specifically tailored to the guy in question. The makeover got into aspects of their lives that might be ignored on similar shows, for example they were both taught how to cook something, and the guys learned how to sing or present themselves better on stage (one was singing karaoke to his wife & the other was the frontman for an indie band)
A very very cool show.
Tonight they're running the UK version of QUEER EYE so I'll see what that's like. Current Mood: tired
I received this from Dreamtime Numerology readings, based on my birthday. The soul urge is karma. I'm not sure what some of the sentences are meant to say (oddly phrased translation from something else into English) but it seems very accurate otherwise:
SOUL URGE 6:
You have a deep inner desire to experience beauty and peace
throughout this life, as well as to be the center of
attention in a family. You enjoy caring for others and you
work very hard at helping them feel secure and joyful as
you live your life! Try not to give them too much
attention or you will find yourself suffering the giving
qualities of those around you. Let them express their own
desire in life and you will find choices that help you
You are a visionary and practical at what you do but try to
stop yourself from demanding perfection in every thing and
you will come to find the inner wisdom and laws of the
diving expressing them self throughout your life.
You will learn to be more flexible throughout your life and
to accept more of your own intuitive wisdom rather than
always relying on practicality and even thinking. You are
joyful and caring, generous and forgiving of others around
you in this life, as you express your inner desire to be
accept and to live with a true sense of family throughout
|Tuesday, September 14th, 2004|
There is a nest of fresh green acacia leaves in the big tree outside of my office window, and in this nest is a family of squirrels. We've counted three babies. They're strong little things and are already scrambling around the tree. Imagine having a vertical babyhood. Current Mood: happy
|Monday, September 13th, 2004|
I have been very upset because they may have to close down my local zoo forever... they don't think they can go on past November. http://www.rossparkzoo.com/virtualtour/index.htm
This is the only place locally where I ever really feel at peace & I visit the zoo as often as I can. Even though I am a paid member, I still pay the entrance fee when I visit, & send in gifts, because I'm trying in some small way to support the animals. But my small contributions on my limited budget cannot begin to make up the $200,000 they say they need if they're going to continue. If it closes I will be devastated. I always tell people about this zoo.. it is the third oldest zoo in the entire nation & it's small, easy to walk around, & is set in a pretty wooded area with lots of gardens that people have donated & maintain themselves. It's very much a community zoo. I was just looking into adopting one of the zoo animals & was trying to decide which one, when I heard the news that they will have to close in November if they dont' get enough backing.
This would mean having to re-home the animals, which would be traumatic for them. They have some creatures they've rescued, such as a little wild duck with stunted wings, who hangs out in the swan enclosure. I would never see her again, or the wolves, or the Sandhill Cranes who always try to steal my watch.
I am very sad about this.
I just got a good comment about the new specs. A guy I know just said he liked me better before in my old ones, because I looked meek on the outside but I was really wicked on the inside. Now I look wicked on the outside. (but I have to wonder.. does this mean I am now "meek" on the inside? No?? Didn't think so.)
It's like I Dream of Jeannie's evil sister, or the Star Trek guys with their evil beards. I told him I would wear the "good" specs sometimes, and at other times my "evil" specs.
I bought a digital camera over the weekend, but I haven't had time to sit down and figure it out yet. Soon, ye shall see me in all my tortoise-shell framed wickedness. Current Mood: naughty
|Saturday, September 11th, 2004|
The Cable guy came yesterday, but my internet service was not on his work order, so he couldn't give it to me (even though I showed him the receipt from when the rep saw me)
I phoned the rep & he said he doesn't know what happened.. and he would give me $20 off my bill and another guy would come next friday.
I was hoping to write emails and do research this weekend.
Well I do have Cable TV anyway.
I'm sorry to everyone for my being so delayed.
|Thursday, September 9th, 2004|
My vision is almost back to normal after those eyedrops they give you. My eyes are in good condition, with only a slight change in my prescription.. which means the visual problems I've been having may be related to the migraines after all (they'd said first at the doctor's to have my eyes checked) Time to stick my head in the scanner again. Luckily they'll put me in the open-ended MRI tube which is available in my region. I'm already feeling panicked about the closeness of it.
So, I've updated my specs to the slightly changed prescription & am wearing them now. I'll have to get used to the way I look in them - they're very different to my old wire-rims. I wanted specs that would stand up for themselves when I wear my hair down. My hair (for those who do not know me) is thick & dark, and has a will of its own. These new glasses are *definitely* as in-your-face as the hair is. They're dark tortoise-shell coloured frames, with a slight cat's eye shape to them, one of those nouveau-retro Buddy Holly type styles. Unfortunately it has "Tommy Hilfiger" stamped in the side in white letters (which I didn't notice when I picked them out, because the price sticker was covering it!) I'll have to paint that out with acrylics when I go home tonight.
*kisses new specs*
In about an hour I'm going to have a much needed eye exam. We're having the remnants of Hurricane Frances passing through, with the worst of it holding off til tonight after I get home (I hope)
Over the weekend I finally purchased a good computer for home, which will have a cable internet connection after tomorrow night. But in the few days I've had it so far, it has already helped me with a music listening assignment for Ren/Early Modern class - I was able to burn five cds onto it & get them back to the Theatre Collection quickly for someone else. Apparently speed & efficiency are everything in the grad program.
Last night I messed about with more music on it, preparing to make mix compilation cds, and then listening to my music class assignment via headphones while I started a painting. The sound quality is very good! Renaissance opera really is amazing.. there are harmonies that people of today are no longer used to hearing. This is what people had to amaze others with, in those days before computer graphics and naked people on MTV
Yesterday was my ferret's birthday - he turned one. He had a bit of custard & some birthday raisins and then bit my leg from all the excitement. My little sweetie.
|Friday, September 3rd, 2004|
I was unfocused and had a headache in acting class. We had to lay on the floor and imagine our bodies being in different states, then pretend to be amoebas moving around (this was cool actually) then do lifting and falling back of different parts of the body to feel gravity's effect, trusting gravity and the floor to take care of us. But the headache made me really nonverbal my only comment was "I liked the sap" (we had to stand from the floor, imagining our bodies had sap rising up into them which was making us stand gradually from the ground up) I really did like that part. I love all of it but my mind was really hyper last night.
I loved especially walking after we did those exercises. It felt totally different because of the new way gravity felt.
My instructor said something really nice when she was getting us to imagine the different parts of our bodies, imagining their weight. She said, "Does your heart have weight?" I thought that was a nice poetic thing especially because it was not intended to be.
In an hour I have my first Theatre and Music in Renaissance and Early Modern Europe class, which is a three hour lecture every friday.
|Wednesday, September 1st, 2004|
My advisor, who promised to have my courses all submitted for registration by Monday so that I could receive my funding, has not done so. Small-ish glitch though.. the department secretary corrected it for me right then and there, without the forms, when I told her about it. My money should be ready for me tomorrow then, if all goes well. I can finally get my books, order plane tickets to England, and start shopping for my corset. I spoke with my friend in the costume shop & she is backlogged with private work at the moment, but she said she would be happy to help measure me (I'm worried I might not do it right & I want to be precise) Tonight, the cable guy comes round & takes the last of my existing money. Then, next week, another cable guy comes round and sets up all of my stuff.
It occurs to me that my computer at home might be too shite to have a Cable connection! It's so old. I suppose if that's the case, they can just make the service happen, and then I can work on updating myself & getting all hooked up. It's going to be so weird. I'm serious.. I may never sleep again with such things as Cable and Internet being brought directly to me in my home. I lose all track of time when I'm on this thing. I should get a timer and try to discipline myself.
Tonight for my acting class, I have to draw my own skeleton. Not a biologically correct one, but the skeleton I might imagine myself having. For example, if I normally felt tension at the shoulders, I would need to draw the skeleton all hunched up in that area. I have to sit down and do this tonight after the cable guy comes.
My acting class is BRILLIANT by the way! It is so much fun, and very active. All of my muscles are sore today (and I got to teach someone a few bellydance moves) I need to keep a seperate notebook for the class, and a journal about my feelings for each class and each practice session with my partner. I hope my instructor feels like reading a novel.. I can get pretty wordy sometimes especially when it's something I'm trying to figure out.